Grow Up

For me, It’s realy hard to became a grow up person. Why ? because I think became a grow up person is need a real and strong preparation for the outside of the “ world”. I always afraid to grow up, I think when become a grow up person I have to throw up my hobbys, my important times, things, and everything that I like. And yes, right here, right now, I’m afraid when I realize that I have been grow up person. I afraid that I can’t be a useful person for everyone or anythings, I can’t compete in the work or social world, and I’m afraid that I can’t fulfill my parents desire.

I feel that I’m still a child. The child that need for more information about the outside of the world or social world. If I have enough of the information, I can compete with the others grown up person and become a useful person in the social world. Maybe I’m grow up right now, but I feel that I’m still don’t have enough information about the outside world. Because of that I’m confused right now. If I don’t know about anything I always depend on my parents. That’s why I feel that I’m still not ready to become a grow up person.

But, even I don’t feel ready to become a grow up person, I’m still have to try and try more to become a great and useful grow up person for the social world. And I will try with all my best to answer my both parents desire. And I can’t do it without my parents help and prayer, help from all my friends and teachers, and of course from the guide of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala. I really thankful to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala., because of Allah, I can step forward until now. and I really thankful to my both parents for all their work and pray for me so, I became a grow up person. And very grateful to my Friends and Teachers who teach me and accompany me until now. I hope someday I become a useful person for you all and work hard to pay it, and of course pray and pray for Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala.